Running From One Year To The Next, Screaming.

So it’s 2012 already. How did that happen? It seems to be mostly a blur; shell-shock from what came before, perhaps? But it had ups as well as downs this time, rather than downs and ohmygodno’s. Eager as I was to leave 2010 behind, escaping its shadow was never going to be that simple. So what do I have to say for 2011? Well, as far as snappy blogs go… er… yeah get a cup of tea in.

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One Year After Diagnosis

One year ago today, it was confirmed that I had Type One Diabetes.

The time between then and now has passed far faster than normal, which is a pleasing silver lining.  I’m sure I have learnt a lot in that time; certainly – considering the other traumatic events of 2010 – I have learnt more about myself than any other year.  But at the same time, I don’t feel I have progressed enough.  I don’t feel I have as much control over it as I should.  I know Diabetics don’t get a total grip over their condition in a year, and considering the serious distractions that come with a loved one’s serious illness being more than an ample distraction, I still feel I should have done more.  But it still feels like only a few months ago that it was confirmed.  In contrast, the day of diagnosis itself was a very long one.

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Dear 2010

Dear 2010,

I feel it is only right to send you this letter, we’ve not met face to face, and this will be the last time I have any interaction with you.  I think you will understand that I am very comfortable with this fact, as – to say the least – we have not got along.

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The Last Day

This year is nearly over.
I cannot wait to see the back of it.

The Mountain Goats – This Year

I’m hungry for a better life.

To Find A Ghost

I have lost a friend I’ve never met. A friend who I didn’t really know.

At the end of October, a tiny corner of the internet ceased to be.  Nothing but a tiny online forum on the outside, The Forum Whatever was one of the most important things to ever happen to me.  I made friends with people I would never otherwise have known.  I shared with them what I could not share with anyone I would meet with in person. I fell in love. This would not have happened if not for one man’s simple idea. But now it appears to have gone. Because that man has disappeared.

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Sick As In Sick

So my dad is pretty awesome.
As in unwell.
Sorry, still being childish from the last blog post.
After making such good progress, this last month has seen far more bad days for him than good.
A few weeks back he was walking without stick or zimmer, I’d get up and he’d have brought the milk in from outside, done the dishes, he’d be alert and upbeat.
But for the last fortnight he’s been sluggish, dazed, unable to walk steadily without his stick and frighteningly similar to how he was in hospital.
We called the doctor out and it looks like he’s picked up an infection. The chemo is leaving his already fragile immune system a mess, despite how low a dosage he’s on. She’s put him on a course of antibiotics, so here’s hoping they get him back on track.

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The Rarest News Of All

They’re out!

Oddly, yesterday reminded me of 9/11.

All those years ago, I – and a couple of close friends – sat and watched in near silence as the world changed.  There had been no point since then that I have been glued to the news.
But ’10/13′ (even though I’m British so I’d say 13/10. ahem) was a day that saw me – and many others around the planet – glued to the news.  Awestruck.  In tears.
But – for once – with good reason.

Lives saved. On national television.  The news, no less – the home of tragedy, misery and unveiled lies. But for one day, the news was overtaken by such rare sentiments as hope, love, loyalty.  Bravery that didn’t land the hero in hospital, prison or a coffin.  Heroism.  Families reunited, not torn apart.

I equate it to that most horrible of dates, because no day since then has seemed so unbelievable.

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You Don’t Have To Have A Beard To Play, But It Helps

Me: “What games did you have in mind?”
Him: “Weird nerdy ones that require beards”

So Games Night Saturday proved to be just what I needed.
I knew little of what to expect beyond the above txt conversation.
I found the reply odd considering two of the group would be women…

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Toy Story 3 And Not Moshing At Work

So I’ve had a surprisingly fun handful of days.

I actually escaped the house. Twice!
Managed to fit in seeing bands, seeing workmates, finding tiny amphibians, going to the cinema and experiencing two men simulate sex up against my leg. What more could someone want from a weekend?

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So today has been frustrating to say the least. Thanks, NHS.

Dad had to go back to Heath Hospital. Not for anything serious, but he had to be assessed by the doctor for the next month’s treatment; to reduce/increase/add to his prescribed medication and to administer a treatment to strengthen his bones.  This infusion was meant to last 20 minutes.  In all, though we were anticipating a wait, we thought we’d be in there two hours max.

Try six.

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